Teenage Dream

So, in our first week of dating Teenage Dream and I saw each other 4 times in 6 days. Color me smitten, but he makes it easy. He's fun, we get along, he tolerates my mocking the Republican candidate he works for, it's like hanging out with a friend. (Just a friend who's pants I want to take off.)

The fact that he showed up for our third date in a chauffeured Mercedes so we wouldn't have to worry about drinking and driving didn't hurt things either. (Seriously, who's life is this?!)

But, like most of my 'relationships' we're entering week 3 and things are starting to fizzle. I'm beginning to develop a complex about this. *I* was hesitant the first week. He was very vocal about how into me he was; he even talked about how he didn't like the idea of me with other guys but being the suspicious person that I am, I put the kibosh on that kind of talk because I am not one who rushes into a relationship. Even when they're driven by a chauffeured luxury vehicle.

It seems that when I started to relax and be more responsive, put myself out there a little more, show him some more affection...he pulled back.

Guys, I get it, you like the chase. So I'm pulling back too. But it still sucks and it creates trust issues when it is WAY too early for there to be any! Now I am back to second guessing myself before I contact him, not wanting to contact him, and certainly not letting him see the real me. I mean, to a point I can only be myself; no matter HOW much I like a guy, I am never going to laugh at bad jokes or play damsel in distress. But come on! 2 weeks ago when he hadn't seen me in 2 days he was telling me he missed me. Now he's gone to NYC for a week and I haven't heard a thing from him?

I'm putting way too much stock into this guy and I know it. Hell, if I took all the energy I put into dating and analyzing men I'd probably have cured cancer by now. (But then there'd be no blog. And even with the intermittent updates, I like the blog.) But man would I just like to date someone for more than 3 weeks and feel secure as to where I stand with them and like maybe there's a future for me with someone.

I've let my online dating membership expire because frankly, I'm tired. I'm tired of the small talk, the getting all done up just to be let down, and the going out for drinks when I'd rather be home walking the dog.

For now I'm going to continue overanalyzing myself and attempting to meet dudes the old fashioned way: by drinking too much and wearing too little.

Bisexuality immediately doubles your chances for a date on Saturday night,
LL