New Year, New Attitude

OK, so it's 2010. New year, new decade, and a new me that takes all the things I was talking about in 2009 and puts them into practice!

I am a big fan of baby steps. Not as an excuse to keep myself in negative behavior patterns but to make change a bit more stomachable. (is that a word?) I'm the first to admit I am scared of change so anything that keeps me moving forward instead of running back is a positive thing for me.

That being said, I went to a popular dog park/hiking area, Runyan Canyon, the other day in an effort to put some of the new me into practice. Runyan was once voted the best pick up joint in LA. Only in this town would a park be a "scene." I took my dogs, dressed in my cute new Lululemon, and off I went. I had gone to a spin class earlier in the day and was not smelling like the freshest rose in the bouquet so this truly would be a test to see if I could flirt while not looking, or smelling, my best.

Within minutes of entering the park I spied my target. Cute, shirt off, nice body, dark and handsome, just like I like 'em. I immediately looked away as I am prone to do but pep talked myself back into making eye contact. (Well...as much as one can behind oversized sunglasses) I mustered up a weak smile. Hey, baby steps.

He smiled back.

EUREKA! It WORKED! I know, it doesn't seem like much, but for me? This is the first step in a self esteem marathon. I continue on my "hike", a little bit of jaunt to my gait with my new found "hotness" boost.

My little old lady dogs get tired and we turn around. Lo and behold, whom do we see a few short minutes later but my new hiking boyfriend. I am nervous again. Smiling once is one thing, smiling twice is a definite signal. But after a few stern words with myself I decide to smile.

He says hi. (!!!!!!!!)

SUCCESS right?! Well....maybe? Because based on the tone, inflection, and body language that accompanied this simple "hey," one thing becomes perfectly clear:

My new boyfriend is gay.

Dammit.

If horse racing is the sport of kings, then drag racing must be the sport of queens,
LL